mac wrote:Three questions you've asked me there, Jon, but you just went on to rant giving me no chance to respond. I don't do mediums, haven't personally experienced evidential mediumship. I have, though, had experiences that convinced me of survival. But you didn't properly ask me why I say what I do, didn't seem to want to know, didn't appear to care what I had said because - perhaps - your routine responses don't apply to me, leaving you with nothing to say....
Why do you say and believe the things you do?
Why do you believe Gordon Smith is a real medium despite the overwhelming evidence that proves otehrwise?
What difference does it make, Jon? When you're dead you're dead. They're gone and their lives didn't matter any more, or less, than mine or yours. In effect isn't that what you're always saying? You spend your life online (it appears) taking the piss out of very ordinary guys like us.
Not at all, I dont live my life online, I spend 5 months or so in Greece every year, I mix with people of all nationalities and backgrounds, I actually struggle to find time to get online and do my work, which is why my replies on here are sometimes a tad sporadic.
You can't have it both ways - a serious seeker concerned about his loved ones but at the same time someone delighting in attempting to upset those who understand what you'd like to. We don't struggle on with a burden such as the one you'd like to lay down for yourself. Why not join us rather than hurt us? By all means attack the fraudulent mediums scamming the vulnerable but we're not doing that. Don't you see?
The problem is I WANT to join you, but every medium you have been convinced by, I have shown is a fraud. So how can I join you? I cant just ignore everything I know, my unmatched knowledge on this, I just cant switch off the critical thinking logical part of my brain. I cant just forget how mediums do their tricks, so that I can be easier to be convinced.
And I do not delight in upsetting anyone, I just get so frustrated and annoyed by the sheer lack of basic critical thinking.
Remember it is hard for me, imagine you know how a magic trick is done. You know someone who thinks it is real magic, so you show them how the trick is done, but they ignore you, call you a liar, insist it is real magic, and person after person keep denying the truth of the trick. You know 100% how the trick is done, you can do the trick yourself, there is not a single possibility in the universe to say that the trick is anything other than a trick, and then you have people calling you a liar, or just refusing to accept the truth of the trick.
That is where I am at. So no I do not delight in anything, I am just desperate for people to see what I can see as I know their lives would be better for knowing the truth, and my anger is born out of a frustration at people just not getting it.
Everything I say, I back up. Never once been proven wrong, never once been sued, never once had any medium make me remove anything. (Except for Colin Fry who convinced me to remove a non psychic related story about him, which I admit I was wrong to publish)
So why would you even consider coming on a website where ordinary guys sometimes talk about such subjects? Is it just that you want to try to hurt us because you've been hurt? It wasn't us who hurt you, Jon and speaking for myself I have no desire to hurt you ever.
You really think I want to hurt you guys, when the truth is that absolute opposite.
Remember i have seen first hand the dangers and consequences of false belief.
A heroin addict cannot see the the problems they face, the problems they cause their family.
Victims rarely know or even accept they are victims while they are still the victim.
I try to empower people with the truth, and encourage them to either fight for what is right, or walk away and never allow themselves to be the victim again.
Granted I do not always go about things in the best way, but that is down to frustration at the sheer levels of ignorance and stupidity I face on a daily basis.
Why do I come here? That is a good question, I guess deep down I cant accept failure, I cant accept that the various regulars on here are so far gone, or so stupid that they wont one day see the truth, and even if they end up seeing the truth because they are so pissed off with me, they look that little bit harder for proof to wave in my face that they end up seeing the truth, then so be it.
Remember i became a skeptic, because I was a believer! I believed in Uri Geller, I wanted to be like him, so I researched, I educated myself, because I wanted to stick it to the skeptics, but the more knowledgeable I got, the more I learned the truth, and so I am here.
Why you think Rainbows is no longer about? Admit it or not, but she basically became too educated to be a full on believer.
Mac you are an old geezer, you are way too indoctrinated and set in your ways to change, but the others here aren't.
I'm contented with my understanding. Are you because it doesn't come over that way? I have no wish to make my life 'meaningful' as you suggest by attempting what you involve yourself in.
I am content with the fact I know I am right, there is not a single doubt in my mind. But I still want to believe, I still do what I do, because deep down I hope I am proved wrong.
So perhaps I am not totally content with myself, I have created a loop that I cannot escape, the more i know, the harder it is to forget.
I'm guessing you've heard that from troll-friend Waller Joel aka various other usernames across website forums? He might be right but what do I care anyway? I don't do mediums and have no need for evidence of something I was persuaded about - without mediumship - over three decades ago. But Waller is still seething over what happened and determined to get at me every occasion he can, the latest on 'thegaryfiles' as I'm sure you will have seen.
No not spoke to him as far as I know, and dont really know who he is or care.
Guessing he is some random old spiritualist pissed at you for whatever reason. I wouldn't really care if I was you (and I know you dont)
As for him trying to get to you, nah he is clearly too much of an ignoramus to do anything to get to anyone.
People like that I squat like flies, so I doubt anything he says or do will bother you anyway.
Who would knowingly want a known trouble-maker in their midst?
No one who is committing fraud thats for sure!
If you go around pretending you can speak Japanese, but you really cant, the last thing you want nearby is a Japanese person right!
You've chosen your path, Jon, and you will probably have to continue walking it by yourself or with the friends who think the way you do. I don't think like them or like you. Approach me asking questions and listening to what I say and I'll help all I can. If that's not enough then I apologise.
I haven't chosen any path, you dont choose to be skeptical. Or an athiest, it is something that naturally happens as you get smarter and more knowledgeable about the subject in hand.
Skepticism doesn't rule my life, I go days without even thinking about my website. Life is too short.